hello world.

2009-07-10T06:58:00.001-07:00

urghhh.
somebody shoot me
this restlessness is killing me.

2009-07-10T06:22:00.000-07:00

why cant anyone understand me
i am not desperate to get a boyfriend.
i dont want a boyfriend.
i just want him and only him.
means im not gona replace him with some dude just because i cant get over him.

i know it was so long ago.

but thats just me.

what if i feel that hes the only one for me.
do you think i care whether he still likes me or ignores me or likes some other girl.
okay actually maybe i do.
because love only happens when two people are in love.
but i cant help it.
i am really trying.

i dont mean to be the most posessive ex-girlfriend who spams her exboyfriend's phone when she already has no clue what is going on his life, whether her existence matters to him, whether she should get a life.
unfortunately i am.

unfortunately i am.

i dont care.
i am going to wait.
even if theres a tsunami or h1n1 or god knows what i am going to wait.

the problem is just how to shut up while waiting.

i cant stop complaining.

because life without you, is shit.

2009-05-22T23:09:00.000-07:00

Kelsey - Metrostation

So take one word you said
you put it in your bed
you rest your tiny head on your pillow
you wonder where you're going next
you got your head pushed to my chest
and now you're hoping that someone let's you in
well i sure'll let you in
you know that you're in
oh kelsey, you

so don't let anyone scare you
you know that i'll protect you
always all through the thick and thin
until the end
you better watch it
you know you don't cross it because
i'm always here for you
and i'll be here for you
(i know x3) i know how it feels believe me
i've been there
(i know x3) i know what it feels like
tell me kelsey

i'd swim the ocean for you
the ocean for you
whoa, oh kelsey
and i'd swim the ocean for you
swim the ocean for you
whoa, oh kelsey
yeah.

it's going to get harder
and it's going to burn brighter
and it's going to feel tougher each and every day
so let me say that i love you
you're all that i've ever wanted
all that i've ever dreamed of to come
and yes you did come
i want you so bad
can you feel it too?
you know i'm so, i'm so in love you
i want you for so much
i need you for so much
i need you, i need you, your touch

i'd swim the ocean for you
the ocean for you
whoa, oh kelsey

and you never (ever)
let me in (let me in)

2009-05-22T03:08:00.000-07:00

Day and Night by Kid Cudi

Day and night (what, what)
I toss and turn, I keep stressing my mind, mind (what, what)
I look for peace but see I don't attain (what, what)
What I need for keeps this silly game we play, play
Now look at this (what, what)
Madness to magnet keeps attracting me, me (what, what)
I try to run but see I'm not that fast (what, what)
I think I'm first but surely finish last, last

[Chorus:]
Cuz day and night
The lonely stoner seems to free his mind at night
He's all alone through the day and night
The lonely loner seems to free his mind at night (at, at, at night)
Day and night
The lonely stoner seems to free his mind at night
He's all alone, some things will never change (never change)
The lonely loner seems to free his mind at night (at, at, at night)

[Kid Cudi:]
Hold the phone (what, what)
The lonely stoner, mr. solo doe low (what, what)
He's on the move can't seem to shake the shade (what, what)
Within his dreams he see's the life he made, made
The pain is deep (what, what)
A silent sleeper you won't hear a peep, peep (what, what)
The girl he wants don't seem to want him too(what, what)
It seems the feelings that she had are through, through

[Chorus:]
Cuz day and night
The lonely stoner seems to free his mind at night
He's all alone through the day and night
The lonely loner seems to free his mind at night (at, at, at night)
Day and night
The lonely stoner seems to free his mind at night
He's all alone, some things will never change (yeah) (never change)
The lonely loner seems to free his(yeah) mind at night (at, at, at night)

[Kid Cudi:]
Slow moe, (what, what)
When the temple slows up and creates that new, new (what, what)
He seems alive though he is feeling blue (what, what)
The sun is shining man he's super cool, cool
The lonely nights (what, what)
They fade away he slips into his white nikes (what, what)
He smokes a clip and then he's on the way (what, what)
To free his mind in search of,
To free his mind in search of,
To free his mind in search of,

[Chorus:]
day and night
The lonely stoner seems to free his mind at night
He's all alone through the day and night
The lonely loner seems to free his mind at night (at, at, at night)
Day and night
The lonely stoner seems to free his mind at night
He's all alone, some things will never change (never change)
The lonely loner seems to free his mind at night (at, at, at night)

At, at, at night

2009-03-18T04:25:00.000-07:00

Cemetery Drvie
My Chemical Romance

This night, walk the dead
In a solitary style
And crash the cemetery gates
In the dress your husband hates

Way down, mark the grave
Where the search lights find us
Drinking by the mausoleum door
And they found you on the bathroom floor

I miss you, I miss you so far
And the collision of your kiss that made it so hard

Back home, off the run
Singing songs that make you slit your wrists
It isn't that much fun
Staring down a loaded gun

So I won't stop trying, won't stop dying
If you want, I'll keep on crying
Did you get what you deserve?
Is this what you always want me for?

I miss you, I miss you so far
And the collision of your kiss that made it so hard

Way down, way down
Way down, way down
Way down, way down
Way down, way down

I miss you, I miss you so far
And the collision of your kiss that made it so hard

When will I miss you, when will I miss you so far
And the collision of your kiss that made it so hard
Made it so hard

Way down, way down
Way down, way down
Way down, way down
Way down, way down

Way down...

2008-12-01T07:13:00.000-08:00

friendly against ijc earlier today
we won 5-2
well done to those who scored :)

just watched this show about people who are as small as dwarfs.
and i thank God for how i am today.

thank you for taking time out to spend your day with me today
:)

i have got to do something with my life.

2008-11-26T03:33:00.000-08:00

i cherish every moment that i spend with you.
today was just one of those days.
:)

felt really awful for not going training today
but wow the anti-depressant really works as a sleeping pill.
haha.

2008-11-25T04:54:00.000-08:00

finally went for a checkup at the hospital (tan tock seng)
thank god there's nothing serious about my illness.
i have this illness called IBS which cant be cured but its rather common among girls my age, according to the doctor.
i am just grateful and thankful that its nothing serious :D

i want to thank everyone namely azmeer, eunice, agnes, hanis,elyana, xioahui and my fb friends for bearing with my complains and whines while i am sick. i really appreciate having friends like all of you.
Thank you for always being here for me.
I love each and every single one of you.

I just pray that i get well as soon as possible.

today my whole family sent one of my kittens to SPCA.
we read the 'requirements' which stated that the animals who are sent in will be put to sleep in 24 hrs if no one claims them. we were close to tears. Thank God at the counter there was this elderly who was willing to bring our pretty white kitten home. She was telling us on how we should never bring animals to SPCA but instead only go there to adopt. I pity the animals there :( will remember what the old lady said for life. She has FIFTY cats! can anyone imagine that?!

2008-11-21T07:09:00.000-08:00

went out to meet aggie and eunice this afternoon :)
im so sorry eunice that you were bored
but it has been a long time since the THREE of us went out together,
so i really cherished it :)
as per normal, we went shopping in town, namely city hall and bugis.

soon, they are going to start work, so yeah, will miss you guys.

fitness training was alright... am very shagged. haha.
and boohoo had the controversy of the 11 laps vs 12 laps thingy.
oh wells. next time i'll make someone count the laps for me.
i added three mins to my timing anyways.

i miss you.

God is always with you.

2008-11-20T05:34:00.001-08:00

'everyday is a new day'
:)

have been rather preoccupied with doing nothing much except for lying down on my bed and going for trainings.
Training is fun! at least i have something to occupy myself with...

tmrw night might be meeting aggie and eunice for dinner :)

time is never enough for me and you.
i love you :)

2008-11-04T21:11:00.001-08:00

hello azmeer :D
:D
:D
:D

2008-11-03T21:50:00.000-08:00

ku mencintaimu
lebih dari apa pun
meskipun tiada orang pun yang tahu
ku mencintaimu
sedalam-dalam hati ku
meski pun engkau hanya kekasih gelapku

2008-11-03T21:38:00.000-08:00

the end of OP :)

and my doom too.
i hope.

2008-10-01T06:39:00.000-07:00

things to buy:
FIRST ON THE LIST: COURT SHOES!!!
shall buy a nice pair of court shoes :) like pretty and nice. hahaha. hopefully pink XD

SECOND ON THE LIST: EYELINER!!!
haha i want to try wearing eyeliner. if it doesnt suit me, i shall do away with it.

THIRD ON THE LIST: TOP/DRESS!!!
i am lacking clothes. seriously. i feel like throwing away my current clothes but if i do so, then i'll be left with none. its so typical of me to wear jeans and i dont think i'll be allowed to wear a skirt anytime soon. so i'd rather go for a top :D

FOURTH ON THE LIST: that would be the skirt. haha.

FIFTH ON THE LIST: a new pair of shoes.

SIXTH ON THE LIST: a new baggie

time to go shopping :)
probably after i get a job...

2008-09-26T04:57:00.001-07:00

I am sorry.

2008-08-24T08:16:00.000-07:00

today might just have been the happiest day of my life :)
no wait.
cant beat the day i wanted to borrow your hands.
haha.
thank you for everything azmeer :)

oh and im sorry we didnt study much. PROMISE you our study sessions will be more effective okay? haha.

we watched 4BIA. got alot of pretty girls! hahaha.
and yet that wasnt THE best part. haha.
and i loved the rain :)

baby its fact
our love is true

2008-08-19T09:07:00.000-07:00

todayyy azmeer sent me home
:)
:)
:)
felt sooo happy lahhh.

but yalah. still feel damn bad because i robbed him of his time. boohoo. sorry.

THANK YOU okay? i reallyyy appreciate it :)

haha i'll consider suggesting to my mum about shifting. HAHAHA.

2008-08-18T07:33:00.000-07:00

CANT BE WITHOUT YOU.

2008-08-15T09:33:00.000-07:00

WHEEEEE
i am so happy since the last time i blogged.
spending my day everyday with you is likeeeee going through the happiest day of my life, over and over again :)))
i love you :)

haha other than that, not too happy about my studies or fb liao.
boohoohoo.

cant wait for tmrw :)

ps. i miss eunice and aggie and melo. and you sayang.

2008-08-10T01:40:00.000-07:00

Be my mirror my sword and shield
My missionaries in a foreign field

2008-08-04T09:41:00.000-07:00

today was a :) day!
at least i think it would have been worse lah if i had to stay at home and face the computer and do elearning. hahaha.
today woke up at like aroundddd eight pm, scared i late to meet azmeer for the URA thing. then my face was so stoned, but i was trying to do my maths lah. then my sis said 'adik you sure not you want to do maths NOW? PAGI PAGI? with your face like that?' hahaha wth.
so yes eventually i left house to meet azmeer at bedok. so happy i wasnt going to be a lone ranger and travel all the way to tanjong pagar aloneee! but i was so worried everyone would laugh at my hair lah. so short. thank God no one did. HEHE :)
then then thennnn
i finally knew that fb guy's name! azmeer's fren. hahaha okay supposedly my fren also lah. since hes in my geog glass and also fb. LOL. hes like really lame lah, kept spamming azmeer about his bag. lol. he didnt look like he talked much, guess i was so wrongggg. lol.
initially i felt kinda weird lah considering like i dont know azmeer's friends and all. but i thought over it and seriously there is no one from my geog glass that could have been a better replacement lah. like seriously. i lone ranger what. LOL.
then after thatttt i siam then go with fadhilah and khai they all coz i didnt have a group. hahaha =x AGAIN, initially felt very weird because i dont usually speak malay and not THAT close to them. but i know all of them, so its not bad.they camwhored alot... then counted cars... then ate at that place whatever its called. hahaha. thennnnnnnnnn COUNT CARS AGAIN. then take pics again. then left. hahahaha. okay it may seem really boring but pls go to other ppl's blog if you want to find a more fun version of this story. LOL. okay not bad lah, got to talk to syafiq (or isit shafiq?) you know must bond with cca mates. LOL.
thennnnn went to meet azmeer at doubyghout, didnt know what to do so we just went back to bedok for home lah. LOL.

haha i just want to thank Azmeer lah for like temaning me today.
andddd i just want to complain that i cannot finish my homework. HAHA.
anddddd VELVERIEEEE YOU NEVER FOLLOWWWW LIAOOOOOO. boohoo.

2008-07-31T07:56:00.000-07:00

wheee
i am slacking -.-
i shall make sure i will do my geog tutorial later!
this will mean that i will turn NOCTURNAL!
haha.

life without going online to chat
is like
so different.
haha.
nowadays i have been staying back in school to supposedly study.
coincidentally mamat azmeer have been staying back too, so study together, with judyyy.
it is an improvement i suppose, realised how much time used to be wasted on me going on online and taking afternoon naps.
today i went home early because i did not bring my study materials
reached homeeeee
anddddddd
SLEPT.
so predictable.
lol.

econs test was :(
a huge blow,
a disappointment.
its okay, we've tried our best...

training yesterday was.. as per normal?
ran thirty rounds around the court because we were late. HAHA.
okaylah running helps to build hot legs! hahaha.
its my skills that i am worried about.
sensed a slight improvement in my passing,
but shooting is still BLUEGH.
tmrw is the testimonial match, j1s playing against j2s.
FUNNY sia.
sure kena trash damn bad tmrw.
lol.
ITS OKAY
we will have fun and try our best!
somemore we have shila, lee peng, chuan yun and the others!
i think.
haha.
SHALL GO CUT STICK TMRW!!! like finally liaooooooooooo.

'They made a cradle of their locked hands and hoisted him up among them and carried him along till he struggled to get free. And when he had escaped from them they broke away in all directions, flinging their cpas again into the air and whistling as they went spinning up...
The cheers died away in the soft grey air. He was alone. He was happy and free.'
James Joyce, A Portrait of the Artist as a Young Man

well i was thinking.
how do you define love?
of course their is no definition for love.
but it is how one looks at it that changes its traits/characteristics.
what if love does not exist?
what if people fall in love because everyone feels alone and needs that security blanket of being taken care of and cared for?
what if it just happens that
the person is in your life, as your friend, as your classmate, as a passerby on the walkway, as someone you got wasted with at a club
and he or she just happens to care for you?
what if people accept love THINKING that it is love but it is actually not?
it might be just a mere acceptance of fate and coincidence, that finally or fortunately, there is someone in your life that cares for you.
as in, im just saying lah.
how true is ones love.
you never know

2008-07-25T09:48:00.000-07:00

oh oh oh
and for my birthday,
i would like to thank EVERYONE who has wished me happy birthday or has celebrated it with me in any way :)

ESPECIALLY KAK AZY AND MY CLASS 08A101 <333
THANKS FOR THE CAKE
and thanks xh and huiming and sarah for the failed attempt :P , for 'caking' me.it was fun!!!
and oh boy can huiming run. FAST sia she run. lol.

2008-07-25T08:50:00.000-07:00

today

25 July 2008

may just be the happiest day of the year so far for me :)

sometimes all i need is a day to reflect, or rather to be left alone.

no no, dont mistake me. i dont enjoy being alone. sometimes all i want is to get things done. Getting things done makes me HAPPY. sorry 08A101 for isolating myself. i think im pmsing lah. anyways i cant multitask, so i think maybe its best that i do work alone. i dunolah. haha.

and BETTER still,

more of doing hw during breaks = LESS EATING! = SAVE MONEY! :)

and BEST part of the day!

KAYAKING!!! it was AWESOMEEE omgzzzz. SO FUN! splash here splash there. row here row there. and i didnt capsize! for ONCE i dont feel like a failure while doing a sport. heh.

and here was my KAYAKING PARTNER!!! <333

HELLOZZ MY ROWING PARTNER! :) oh and STOP looking at my botak head -.-

i hope i would stop isolating myself
at the same time
i want to get things done
promos is in EIGHT weeks.

TOODLES, happy girl going to bed :)

2008-07-24T09:17:00.000-07:00

To see ms seah cry was probably the worst part of it all.
Thank God I didnt see any of the fb guys whom i know cry.
Heads up guys, you guys are still the BEST of the BEST, truly. Let us do MJC proud again next year and please never let the spirit die.
CONGRATULATIONS FB GIRLS AND GUYS we are all proud of you and aspire just to be good players like all of you are :)

i really really really want this.
To see myself improve in my studies and also in fb is my only wish for now.

who says you cannot do this alone?
in fact i think doing this alone is the most essential part of the whole process.
please do not give up on yourself
youre stronger than you think. really.
all you have to do is believe in yourself.
confidence is all it takes, dont let security be your enemy.

youre a student athlete.
a hardworking student
and a persevering athlete.
dont give up now.

2008-07-24T04:11:00.000-07:00

eom is driving me nuts =/
siannn.

2008-07-21T03:44:00.000-07:00

trip to kl was WHOA OH

why do i put myself in these situations

2008-07-18T03:53:00.000-07:00

happy that i got to watch a proper fb match! like finally!
and kucing played :)

so happy that i got to spend time with lyana and amira! hahaha.

so happy that i got to spend time with azmeer judy adib yest. haha.

hmm okaylah.
actually after todays convo
i realised im quite loner.
hahaha.
HECK lah.
lol.

2008-07-12T01:14:00.000-07:00

i feel like wearing eyeliner on my eyes and go to popular to buy a penknife and cut myself everywhere and go to sch showing the whole world that i am suicidal. not that anybody would care.

so i would not do so.
even if i really feel like it.

2008-07-04T06:21:00.001-07:00

hello.
i hate today.
today sucks.

2008-07-03T09:35:00.000-07:00

DO YOU KNOW
That Islam prohibits interest?

haha i didnt know.

2008-07-01T21:12:00.000-07:00

'Reliving the ways of the Prophet (SAW) would mean manifesting and spreading practices of love, tolerance, understanding and patience that would go a great distance in engulfing stubborn pockets within us who still have a one-dimensional view of the Prophet (SAW)'

2008-07-01T10:59:00.000-07:00

hey hey HEY!
it has been quite a while since i blogged.
the examinations are finally over!
Okay okay I am a bit slow.
Results are going to be out soon and I am definitely not looking forward to that.
However, I am rather ready to face the consequences of my results.

Staying at home for the past few days have made me feel like a delinquent, even though I do have the rights to stay at home.
As long as my brain does not stop functioning, I am alright with staying at home => haha.
Having no friends to talk to at home, I do feel very bored but this break really means a lot to me. I have been really stressed out that I feel that God knows that I need this. Thank you God.
Nonetheless, I cannot wait to be back in school again to see my lovely friends, and of course, do some serious mugging.

For those of you who have been suffering from back aches, neck aches and headaches like me, this is what you should do:
* Stand with your heels and shoulders touching a wall. Tilt your pelvis so that the small of your back presses against the wall, relieving back muscles. Hold for 15-30 seconds. Do this exercise regularly to reduce your risk of getting back pain or to relieve existing pain.
* Do crunches!
* Give your neck muscles an all-around stretch one step at a time. First, while sitting erect in a chair, lower your chin to your chest, letting the weight of your head gently stretch tense muscles at the back of the neck. Hold the stretch for 15 seconds.
* Next, gently let your head drop toward one shoulder. Hold for 15 seconds and repeat on the other side.
*Do a self-massage of muscles in the face and neck that often refer pain to the head. Start by gently pressing your fingers on both sides of your face around the hinge to your jaw, rubbing the area in a circular motion, then kneading the skin with your fingers. Next, move hands to the area just behind the jaw and below the ears, massaging gently as you slowly slide hands down your neck to the base of the shoulders.

JENG JENG JENG!

courtesy of http://findarticles.com/p/articles/mi_m0846/is_10_21/ai_86035122/pg_3?tag=artBody;col1
smiles.

Strawberry Sundae
Like a Strawberry Sundae,
you were always there for me,
you filled my tastebuds with such glee.

But the Strawberry Sundae melted.

The red, delighting sundae was gone.
And now I'm done.

2008-06-23T04:48:00.000-07:00

fuck this.fuck this.fuck this.fuck this.fuck this.fuck this.fuck this.fuck this.fuck this.fuck this.fuck this.fuck this.fuck this.fuck this.fuck this.fuck this.fuck this.fuck this.fuck this.fuck this.fuck this.fuck this.fuck this.fuck this.fuck this.fuck this.fuck this.fuck this.fuck this.fuck this.fuck this.fuck this.fuck this.fuck this.fuck this.fuck this.fuck this.fuck this.fuck this.fuck this.fuck this.fuck this.fuck this.fuck this.fuck this.fuck this.fuck this.fuck this.fuck this.fuck this.fuck this.fuck this.fuck this.fuck this.fuck this. FUCK this.

okay i feel better now
lesson no 1
NEVER panic for your papers. NEVER.
lesson no 2
NEVER trust anyone.
lesson no 3
no point loving people who dont love you.
lesson no 4
dont join a cca youre not good in.
lesson no 5.
fuck this.

2008-06-20T08:03:00.000-07:00

today was a very productive day for me and eunice! :)
haha she was busy mugging!
like WAHHH.
so yup didnt talk as much as we always do =x

BUT!
we still camwhored as usual :)

eunice and sunflower! :D

POLAR BEAR!!! :D

look at my face! it says ERRR.

HAHA. what more can i say.

the ONE the ONLY teddy bear!!! hahaha

ERRR. haha i dont know how to spell this horse's name. HAHA.

ELMO!!! red lovable elmo :D

Do you feel like a man when you push her around?
Do you feel better now as she falls to the ground?
Well I'll tell you my friend, one day this world's going to end
as your lies crumble down, a new life she has found.

2008-06-19T09:12:00.000-07:00

YAY finally bought a cardigan! :D :D :D
ive been wanting one since FOREVER! woots.
i shall save money from now on.
probably even to the point that i have to spend less on FOOD!
OMGZZZ. lol. :O

haha EUNICE being retarded but cute. LOL.

US. opposite a DIFFERENT mirror of a DIFFERENT toilet. HAHA.

*GRINS*

funny face!!!

LOOOVE the couch! :D

YAY camwhoring is fun!

I LOVE EUNICE!
shes my 'play' buddie and also my study buddie and also my smsing buddy!
haha
:)

2008-06-18T08:20:00.000-07:00

HOW TO BUILD SELF-CONFIDENCE
It takes dedication to realize you are a good human being that is worthy of respect and love.

1. Recognise your insecurities
- everything?
(basically because there is competition/expectations involved in everything that i do. OR im just too self conscious =x HMMM. i think im afraid to be judged. or rather. I HATE being judged)

2. Talk about it with friends and loved ones.
okay. right now im letting the whole world know about this O.o okay no. just my close friends that read my blog.

3. Remember that no one is perfect.
After sixteen years, I am starting to realise that i am much of a perfectionist.
'Learn that life is full of bumps.'

4. Identify your successes.
Hmm. Doing well in PSLE? HAHA. hmm im good at loving and caring for people :) hmm. i can sing?

5. Be thankful for what you have.
Okay I am very thankful that * **** **** ******** **** *********. Really. *** * **** **** ***** ** **

6. Be positive!
okay frens i need your help in this. If you see me being pessimistic scold me okay! :) THANKS. 'Avoid self-pity' HOHOHO. i do that alot.
'Instead speak positively about yourself, about your future, and about your progress.'

7. Look in the mirror and SMILE!
ooouuu i do that all the time :)

8. FAKE IT
HAHA! okay. if you say so :D

9. Express yourself
I AM!

10. Stick to your principles.
mmhmm. always did.

11. Help others
eunice youre my first victim :)

12. Stop worrying.
HMM. Its not that easy you know.
BUT i am going to do it! :)

JENG JENG JENG. with the help of
http://www.wikihow.com/Build-Self-Confidence

ps. this is a very personal post.
so BE HONOURED. HOHO.

2008-06-18T06:05:00.000-07:00

yay i finally finished the first geog topic!
like its about time right =x

i want to buy jacket!
theres a puma sale in tm :)

ps. honestly i want to do well for midyears.
but i cant aim high because i just dont want to be laughed at when the results are out.
=/

2008-06-17T01:29:00.001-07:00

all thanks to the blog template im using, i feel like painting my nails black.
lol.

2008-06-16T07:48:00.000-07:00

STUDYING WITH EUNICE MAKES ME HAPPY!!!
she makes me SMILE and LAUGH :D
we listen to nice (or thrash :P ) music :D
we talk and talk and talk
and we STUDY STUDY STUDY of course.
she scared me for maths and geog tho. rawrs. lol
oh oh!
and we WALK AND WALK AND WALK!
i finally found cheap clothes for me to buy
:D :D :D
shall ask my mummy to give me money like as soon as exam ends :)

WHEEE

oh and we took pics!

*grins*

:)

EUNICE!!!

she poured like three packets of cream into her coffee!
looks kinda gross dont ya think? :P

Don’t tell me you’re sorry cuz you’re not
Baby when I know you’re only sorry you got caught
But you put on quite a show
You really had me going
But now it’s time to go
Curtain’s finally closing
That was quite a show
Very entertaining
But it’s over now
Go on and take a bow

Things to do for the day:
- finish econs notes! (done)
- start on geog! (done)
- run! (NOT DONE)
- dont go online to chat! (MISSION IMPOSSIBLE)

2008-06-15T09:40:00.000-07:00

im going to turn in soon

before that
i want to say HAPPY DADDY'S DAY to all dads in the world! :D
today was a mugger-less and food-full day. hahaha.
and at the back of my daddy's father's day card.
was this.

GRINS.

good night everyone :)

NOTE TO MYSELF:
DATE WITH ELYANA ON 4TH OF JULY :D

2008-06-15T07:46:00.000-07:00

When I grow up
I wanna be famous
I wanna be a star
I wanna be in movies

When I grow up
I wanna see the world
Drive nice cars
I wanna have groupies

When I grow up
Be on TV
People know me
Be on magazines

When I grow up
Fresh and clean
Number one chick when I step out on the scene

HAHAHA

right now, THIS is my motivation to study :D
HAHAHA. i want a sports car man.

HAPPY BIRTHDAY ELLE!!!
(sorry i suck because i cant remember birthdates :( boohoohoo)
oh well. hope you had a fun day! :D

2008-06-15T02:12:00.001-07:00

so annoyed.
today has been a very annoying day.

2008-06-13T08:51:00.001-07:00

the pig has to run soon
like soon soon.

2008-06-13T05:48:00.000-07:00

23 JUNE - GP
24 JUNE - H1 GEOG
25 JUNE - H2 ECONS
26 JUNE- H2 MATHS
27 JUNE - H2 LIT

omg geog is my second paper?!
oh man i didnt know O.o
GOOD LUCK to me.

2008-06-13T05:13:00.000-07:00

I dont get you.
really.
and i have no time for this!
you just ruined my entire day.
well its my fault too isnt it?
fine whatever.

just pack your bags and leave.

I feel terrible.
This is what happens to every single time i stay at home.
Am i getting worse?
Is it true that I spend every time alone feeling lonely?
I dont know.

perhaps these feelings would change one day.

2008-06-11T06:35:00.000-07:00

this is all im gonna say today.
LOL.

2008-06-10T06:14:00.000-07:00

fuck im a fat pig.
all i have been doing is
eating
eating
and
eating.

maybe i should go run soon.
like tmrw would be good.
or tonight? hmm. wonder whether my mum will let me.

when will i ever get over you.
like seriously
now would be good.

2008-06-03T05:36:00.000-07:00

and i failed.

2008-06-02T23:53:00.000-07:00

there was once
i was never like this
NEVER
like this.
please let me remember what i used to be in the past.
i want to be that girl again.
because that is the true me.

let this post be the last mourning.
the last self-pity
the last complain
the last regret

please.
God i beg of you.

2008-04-26T08:42:00.000-07:00

it has been a long time since i blogged.
and finally,
i found a need to do so.
i feel that i have to let it all out
instead of keeping it all inside.

i really want to change.
i hate waking up everyday just to feel worthless.
i hate finding a reason to live for.
i hate pretending to be happy when truthfully i am not.

i want a new beginning.
everyday i tell myself 'tomorrow' i will change.
i guess things do not work that way.
i have to start telling myself that today, on this very date, i will change.
i do not know why people think that people who are sad are those who attract attention. maybe the society should look at these people as those who NEED attention. as in seriously. sometimes people just want to be cared for.
nevertheless, i will make sure that i will change. i will make sure that relationships are not going to affect me.

all i am going to care about starting from now onwards is everything but love.
yes do that i shall.
i am SO sick of feeling lonely and wallowing in self-pity.
it isnt that great you know being in self-pity.
it only eats you up inside because you know that you are not allowing anybody to cheer you up but yourself. so its kinda pointless you know? people consoling you and all.

yes, i am going to change the way i am.
i am going to change my life.
i am going to be the HAPPIEST that i can be.

2008-04-08T06:47:00.000-07:00

tell me how im supposed to breathe with no air.
if you aint here i just cant breathe.

2008-04-05T20:48:00.000-07:00

if i should die before i wake its coz you took my breath away.

2007-12-29T09:43:00.000-08:00

havent blogged properly in a long time.

went for class chalet on the 12th to 14th of december
i expected more people to be there but it was still a blast no doubt :)
this is the parrot at the costa sands chalet at downtown east. what a famous parrot it is. haha.

i was being quite a neh neh when i thought i lost fifty bucks.
eventually rachel found it on top of the cabinet. HAHA.
waste my tears.

it was my first time playing arcade! though i could have paid more if i wasnt so upset about my 'lost' money. lol. it was fun! i didnt know my friends can play the arcade so well..

The next day we when to ESCAPE THEME PARK. also my first time. as you can see im either an obedient child or just a deprived one. haha. i enjoyed the water splash thingy. the other rides basically scared the hell out of me, especially the ship thingy. I CANT BELIEVE YAN HUI AND MELO WENT TO RIDE THE INVERTER. i was already on the verge of tears when i took the ship thingy. haha. it was an AWESOME experience nonetheless. I wanted to go to WILD WILD WET to look at the OH-SO-HOT lifeguards there.. but errr not really the right time (if you can figure out what i mean)haha.
Here we have melo and shermin, while waiting for our turn to ride the go-carts...

lets just say after riding the go-cart i still think im not ready to drive a car =x

yanhui and shermin. LOL.

thats all i can remember of the chalet... haha.

i went to batam a few days ago.
there things there are OMG so freaking cheap.
you can find shirts costing less than a dollar. tshirts lah. for blouses the cost would probably be around five bucks. things have never been that cheap man.
we took a ferry and passed by this Star Cruise. so hugeee.

so peaceful is the open sea

nice chandelier at the hotel...

and my sis said they sold durians as big as a person's bum. haha.

haha i was bored

seee.even my dad was bored.

and the last thing i want to say about my trip to batam was that looking for a skirt which suits me was still a failed attempt. dang.

2007-12-27T07:43:00.000-08:00

lonely

2007-12-02T08:44:00.000-08:00

You took my hand
You showed me how
You promised me
You'd be around
Uh huh
That's right
I took your words
And I believed
In everything
You said to me
Yeah huh
That's right

If someone said three years from now
You'd be long gone
I'd stand up and punch them out
Cause they're all wrong
I know better
'Cause you said forever
And ever
Who knew

Remember when
We were such fools
And so convinced
And just too cool
Oh no,
No no.
I wish I could touch you again
I wish I could still call you a friend
I'd give anything

When someone said count your blessings now
'fore they're long gone
I guess I just didn't know how
I was all wrong
They knew better
Still you said forever

And ever
Who knew

Yeah yeah
I'll keep you locked in my head
Until we meet again
Until we
Until we meet again
And I won't forget you my friendWhat happened

If someone said three years from now
You'd be long gone
I'd stand up and punch them out
Cause they're all wrong and
That last kiss
I'll cherish
Until we meet again

And time makes
It harderI wish I could remember

But I keep
Your memory
You visit me in my sleep

My darling

Who knew
My darling
My darling
Who knew
My darling
I miss you
My Darling
Who Knew

Who knew

2007-12-02T03:51:00.000-08:00

i have been counting money ever since i got broke due to prom expenses.It looks like I have $100 worth of coins which my dad is unwilling to change it to notes, claiming that i would use everything :( sad.no money.I shall eat less, which is a sad thing because to me, food is IMPORTANT. haha. Furthermore im the kind who eats more when im sad -.-

On fri night my family and I went to clarke quay.For FUN, PEACE, LAUGHTER, JOY.

My mum wanted to expose my sister and I to the night life.However, since most pubs have an age limit of 21, the only place we were allowed to go was this space. loads of ang mohs :D They were waiting for this Scottish band and when they finally performed, my mum said 'our hadrah nicer'. No offence to anyone, LOL.

This evening we went to Seletar reservoir to enjoy the pleasant scenery. And of course, my sister and i took photos.

whee so nice :) the serenity.
On our way our we saw monkeys! They were so freaking cute but still scared me though. So i did not dare to take photos of them. HAHA.

Here's a hilarious vedio if you want to have a good laugh :)

And here's the lovely DOUGIE. oh he's from mcfly if you didnt know.

That's all for now yo.

2007-11-29T05:22:00.000-08:00

PICTURE TIME!!!

this is one of the many pictures of DANNY in my phone :)

haha GEOG! (a bit pathetic but yeahh. haha)

melo! during her napfa

bio ws O.o i guess i was bored

kak azy LOL

mjc!

jessica shen acting shy during our study session for myes. haha.

this is between me and my group mates! :P (rmbr my -----? HAHA)

haha i was completing the chem tys for o's

my sis and some cuteee girl

jannah at the family centre! while studying for prelims

LOLLIPOP! hanis gave it to me :D

pamela and syafiqah refusing to change into traditional costumes. hrmpf.

melo, yanhui and aggie! :)

4Z07... <333

hahaha i chose this pic coz i look quite okay. quite. haha. weiling was making her record of ten years of not celebrating racial harmony day. LOL

GAH i'll miss my friends :(

the week in a zoom...
last fri
eunice and i went job hunting again. i had to travel throughout singapore in order to reach paya lebar O.o and i was around an hour late! SORRY AGAIN EUNICE! =x and the job was some nehhh job. waste my timeeee only..
last sat
went to my grandma's house.. hmm. practically stoned the whole day. night spent online as usual.
last sun
errr i cant rmbr
mon
went out with DARLING JASLIN! :D pics in her phone so i cant post =x
we went VIVO!!! to watch fred claus! not the best movie ever (cant beat TRANSFORMERS) but its hilarious :)my first time there so i was quite amazed by the large space Vivo has.lol.OMG i was speechless at the breathtaking view on top of vivo! so romantic! and so calm and so ahhh... haha. We saw like ALOT of ang mohs! so hot and cute =x if only they were not tourists... lol.i wanted to push jaslin into the water thingy.haha.all in all had a great day :)
tues
went to find job with eunice again... FRUITLESS. urgh.
wed
stoned at home.
TODAY!
went to east coast park to meet POLLY! forced my dad to send me or else i would have taken forever to reach it =x i was an hour late.again.SORRY! :( heh. we went rollerblading! so fun! but i didnt know renting the blades would be so costly -.- cheat my feelings( i wanted to save money). i had fun teaching Polly, hope she enjoyed it too :) it has been quite some time since i did some exercise. haha. the most annoying thing was that i could not stop whenever i wanted to. sheesh. caught up with that minah. I SAW A CUTE ANG MOH BOY! they're from europe! AHHH! i took pic with him. and his mum was like 'oh see youve got a fan!' HAHAHAHA. and i made the boy blush like crazy. hahaha

SEE! SO CUTE! OMGGGG. okay dont look at my tut face. look at the boyyy

me and polly! oh i want my braces again.

okay tired already lah
upload so many pics
my comp v irritating.
taas

2007-11-26T09:50:00.000-08:00

2007-11-25T08:15:00.000-08:00

replies to tags

father: dad you nvr ajak me go burn the books with you! haha O.o yes i know, super cute :)
siti: i sure will when i find them :)
polly: haha thx! im sure there's more than luck that i need. lol.
ANONYMOUS LOVER OF ATIQAH: minah, sorry about tmrw. haha. yes money is loveeee for now. but im still broke O.o and agatha CHRISTIE rocks! :P
atiqah: twin i miss you! dont keep disappearing yeah? come online and teman me :)
jaslin: DARLING! SEE YOU TMRW HAHA :)

2007-11-25T08:12:00.001-08:00

OH AND PEOPLE.
YOU CAN GO LISTEN TO THE LOVELY SONG
by MCFLY-IGNORANCE
so cute right my media box :D haha

2007-11-25T08:03:00.000-08:00

i wanted to buy a skirt today
ended up buying a pants because my mum didnt let me buy a skirt :(
so heartbreaking
and im still jobless
so heartbreaking
and im still broke
so heartbreaking
AND DANNY HAS A GIRLFRIEND
oh SO heartbreaking.

and these days..
i just dont know how to slack :(
haha. tv boring. radio dont have (for now). cds all watched. online friends so dao. go shopping feet ache. GO FIND JOB SO USELESS. alaaaa boring ah. tsk.

2007-11-22T04:10:00.000-08:00

since monday
eunice and i have been looking for jobs
to no avail

today is the most horrible one of all
we couldnt even find the place!
its some ulu place at newton!
what atland house!
so we wasted our whole day walking from newton back and forth,
going to far east
walking to ps.
just walking and walking and walking.
woah
can get leg muscle

i was kinda sad that i couldnt join melo and shermin to watch movie
because im completely broke
like COMPLETELY :(

but walking with eunice is fun! :)
she makes me laugh. that nonsense woman.

yest, went to gucci to apply for job.
after filling up the LONGEST application form ever,
we were waiting for the interview.
only to find that we can go back home because they gave priority to those who are looking for full time jobs.URGH.
felt like killing the woman at the counter. she could have said it earlier!

however,
i LOVE going town! haha. this is because on normal school days i do not really go town.
so now i have all the time to do so!
we've been looking out for ANG MOR babies!cute guys!married man! okay nolah not married men. haha. but dont you think that ang mor guys are so hot?
GRINS :)

EUNICE CHUAH DONT FORGET TO BRING YOUR SHADES TOMORROW OR ELSE I WILL KILL YOU :D

Anyways, i want a job. i want job. i want job. anybody??

2007-11-20T05:26:00.000-08:00

today eunice and i went for the job interview at raffles place which wasnt so scary after all =x
we were practically like lost cows as we went in circles looking for the place.
when we finally left, we saw two other cedarians who most prob were looking for jobs too.lol.
EUNICE I HOPE WE GET THE JOBS BECAUSE I DONT WANT TO BE BROKE.haha.

afterwards, went window shopping at wisma and taka again.
window shopping - until i was somehow convinced by eunice that i should go buy nail polish. hahaha :)
sooo, just a few mins ago i just finished painting my nails. THEY ARE MAROON NOW!woots.
but its kinda stupid and a waste of the nail polish because by tmrw i would have to remove it.rah.
rah rah rah rah
haha.

being online nowadays is rather boring.
no one really to talk to.heh.
sooo, i shall go read my book by agatha christie :)
taas!

Do you know what it feels like loving someone that’s in a rush to throw you away?
Do you know, do you know, do you know, do ya?
Do you know what it feels like to be the last one to know the lock on the door has changed?

im in love with this song :)

2007-11-19T08:34:00.000-08:00

A NEW TEMPLATE!!! =D

i am a free bird! :) woots
o's is finally over and i finally have the time to blog..
o's was swallowable i guess.hope all of us did fine..
well after o's everyone was too busy having fun to rmbr to tear/burn our entry proof! haha.
all my books are chucked aside outside my room.
woah.
after around three months of agony, my room is FINALLY clean.
Otherwise, there would be worksheets EVERYWHERE. on the floor. on the table. on my bed.under my bed. on the cupboard.in the cupboard. haha.

So after o's everyone got busy for prom..
i went to town FIVE days straight. superrrr tiring. heh.legs aching all over. but it was worth it i guess.
its very rare to see me go shopping.shopping with melo, syafiqah, yirong, jannah is hell lot of fun and humour :)
i spent my days at far east chasing after hot guys. haha. okay not really me. coughs :P
let me see.i spent $271.
-dress:$79
-shoes:$20
-clutch:$20
-perming of hair:$82
-makeup and hairdo:$50
-accessories:$20
A TOTAL OF: $271
JENG JENG JENG
now im broke O.o

sooo
prom was expectedly boring.
the normal competitions and stuff.
even though our class did not win anything, i thank all those who participate for their great effort! :)
everyone was looking so glam and pretty :) hahas.shall post up prom photos later...
i went home kinda early so didnt really get to rock to the songs. heh. sad.
well that was that...so glad that its over so that i can my money on other stuff.HAHA.

today begins a fresh new week
so eunice and I thought of looking for jobs.
but my dad didnt buy the paper and eunice said there were not many jobs that we were interested in..
hence we went TOWNNN!!! AGAIN!!! haha. my new hangout place.
i bought a new blouse! :) i was so happy about it until my mum said that i have a guy's taste because the shirt is a bit big :(
i mean like HUH which guy's shirt has glitter on it?! i still disagree with my mum.
just because i cant cook. i cant sit up straight. i cant sit or walk 'properly' like a lady and just because most of the time i dont care about how i look does not mean that im a tomboy. HELLO I LIKE PINK! i like girlish stuff! i like to wear rings! i like to wear shades! i like to look pretty lah its just that most of the time i dont want to give ppl the impression that im cheeky or that im a minah. rah. nvm.
i still like my shirt.HRMPF.
and eunice bought two cardigans and realised that shes wasting her money away. haha.
so we're going for job interviews tmrw! :)
hope we get jobs asap.we're running out of time and MONEY!grins

Things to get after work:
-my FIRST sports shoes!
-my second shades!
-my erm third pair of jeans?
-oh oh oh my FIRST adidas bag!
-a new sweater!
-and if i have extra money i'll just buy more food and clothes :) haha.
OH YA. i have to return my parents' 271 bucks :( there goes my pay...
oh wells. its my first time working so i dont really mind if experience is all that i get to keep :)

sorry lauren for making you wait for my post.
that poor girl went to sleep already
and thank you jaslin for giving me moral support to finish my post. haha :)
yay im done. gotta go to bed.adios amigo! :)

2007-09-18T07:21:00.000-07:00

hey world :)
the prelims is finally over!
i do not wish to think about the results.
but i shall just say what i think about the papers.snorts.

amaths and chem were the harderst, unexpectedly.
i studied extremely hard for these two subjects, in hope to do well
but NOOO you just have to choose my favourite subjects to be the harderst ones
grr

bio
was surprisngly easy. when i AGAIN studied so hard for it, u HAVE to make it easy.
if you make it easy, how i know whether the intensive mugging actually worked? tsk.
troublesome.

okay im contradicting myself.haha.
all the other papers were as per normal.

life has not been that good
but i guess it has improved,
with the help of my friends like agnes, eunice and hanis. thanks yo :)

melodie pok jia yi, i miss you worzzzz
elle you too.

i really want to do well for o's.
i had studied so hard in my first three years in cedar
i do not want to screw it up in the final lap. really.
i hope i will learn to study smart and how to finish my exam papers in time for o levels. haha snorts.

rushed home today after the lit paper and landed on my bed. haha
slept for three whole hours. woah shiok man.
i always feel like a dead corpse during the fasting month.
just look at how much i eat each time yo!
i hope i'll survive this all right.lol

after dinner, hurriedly sat in front of my computer
logged on into msn
and could not get in
and guess what
i actually cried. hahahaha.
the same thing happened to me when i retur ned home from oac.
tsktsktsk i have bad luck.
i was so enthu about going online and then DIAOOOO. GRRRRRRR

you.
i miss you.
but youre better off without me.

you.
youre better off without her.
but oh wells, who am i to say that.
you'll break her heart.
and ive gone through that stage.
looking at the circumstances, it would be even worse for her. sigh.
life goes on.

2007-07-23T08:25:00.000-07:00

thank you better half for always being here for me.
its funny how pri sch frens make a lasting memory.
even though i dont rmbr anything. =x hahas.
thanks you dears
i miss you guyss
alot
last time in pri sch i v popular okayyy. hahaha.

2007-07-23T08:19:00.000-07:00

take a glass bottle and smash it against the wall
let the pieces clash to the floor
closing any door
for you to elude.
take a piece to smear blood all over you
and there
the results of being separated from the one that you love.

2007-07-23T04:46:00.000-07:00

wheee. IM SO DAMN HAPPY NOW. WHEN JUST A SEC AGO I WAS DAMN SAD. hahahaha. thats me. my mood is damnn ermmm weird? haha.
MY DADDY BOUGHT ME THE HARRY POTTER BOOK. i kinda expected it but i tot he was going to buy for me after the prices go down and stuff. WHEE. NOW I CAN GO READ IT. YAYY =DDD whee. whee. whee.
come i tell you.
TODAY IS A VERY SPECIAL DAY.
1. today happens to be daniel radcliff's bdae too! :)
2. today is the official switch in the 987 djs
3. today is the official MCR day =D
most importantly,
TODAY IS MY BDAE! XD
okay this shall be the first and last ego post. im usually very humble okayyy. its just that im high. haha.
dahlah lapar. i go eat. taas :)

2007-07-23T04:33:00.000-07:00

since no cedarian except for jessica shen and melodie pok rmbred my bdae, (thanks darlings! :) )
i shall sing myself a birthday song.
happy bdae to me happy bdae to me happy bdae happy bdae happy bdae to me.
i thought it would be a good day. i thought wrong.
spent first hour of the day doing hw.
second hour crying.
next three hours sleeping.
waking up to find myself crying again.
went to school.
found that no one rmbred my bdae.
sorrylah. its just that for once its on a weekday and all i wanted was for someone to care. for someone to actually take note that its my bdae.
i dont need anyone's presents or anything. hmm nvm.
then.
had pe. told ms poon i had cramps but she still insisted that i do pe.
after that jogging.
recess was hell.
i climbed up the stairs alone. feeling like i was going to die anytime soon. cramps was damnnn bad.
reached the classroom, vomitted in the toilet.
sad part was my classmates who were there didnt even notice.
only weiling noticed i wasnt okay :) thanks.
spent the rest of the day with the hot water bag.
on the way home, had to stand all the wayyyy to woodlands.
my new favourite bus failed me :(
today sucks.
either that or im just pmsing.
all i know is having menstrual cramps suck. at least for me.

2007-07-14T06:12:00.000-07:00

dont ever FUCKING dare to talk to me again or else i will just ask you to fuck off.

2007-07-12T07:17:00.000-07:00

sorry for appearing in your life.

2007-07-09T07:37:00.000-07:00

i dont know what else to say
i cant cope with this - unstability of emotions
i really cant.
i need ppl around me TWENTY FOUR SEVEN
but thats impossible
becoz no one cares THAT much for me

Avril Lavigne Ft. Lil' Mama - Girlfriend (Remix)

2007-07-07T09:18:00.001-07:00

yayyy =D gotta love her shades XD

2007-07-06T10:25:00.000-07:00

tak perlu seribu bintang
yang bertaburan di langit sana
untuk menemani malam-malammu
ku ada di sini

2007-06-27T07:05:00.000-07:00

youve gotten over me

what about me

you want to be urself?

i want to be myself too.

eh

you dont know

how much i cry everyday

how dare you say life is better

how dare you say i play with our relationship

i know i should walk away

but i FREAKING CANT

which is why i dont even though i think thats better

since now as friends

we dont even talk

i duno wth ur definition of frens is

sheesh

my frens dont fcking scold me btw

u dont need love?

GOOD FOR YOU

2007-06-25T07:45:00.000-07:00

thats it
i thought i could change to be a happier person
i guess im wrong
i surrender to this failure
bury me, bury me.

2007-06-24T05:46:00.000-07:00

"Dear Atiqah,
In Othello, I learn about tragedy. The nature of it and examples of it. And i think that before your life ends up like a tragedy, you have to take action and change its course. Cause you see, a tragedy is when a person falls from such great heights. He is one that is spectacular and is greatly admired but later falls so much because he is driven by such strong emotions and passion that leads him to take drastic measures.
Don't be the next Othello, cause I think you've got great potential and all that potential would go to waste and not be realised if you continue to be driven by your emotions.
I know you're much stronger than this, so don't let me down. Worst of all, don't let yourself down."
-azy
yay i learnt that in Macbeth too. The annoying tragic flaw. how sad.
I LOVE YOU KAK AZY, THANKS FOR ALL THE SUPPORT AND MOTIVATION =D

2007-06-24T03:24:00.000-07:00

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2007-06-23T08:14:00.000-07:00

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2007-06-23T01:57:00.000-07:00

ihatemyself.ihatemyself.ihatemyself.
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2007-06-23T01:29:00.000-07:00

I don't want another pretty face
I don't want just anyone to hold
I don't want my love to go to waste
I want you and your beautiful soul
You're the one I wanna chase
You're the one I wanna hold I won't let another minute go to waste
I want YOU and YOUR BEAUTIFUL SOUL
=DDD
DANNY XD

2007-06-22T13:24:00.001-07:00

4.30am
wah record
the latest i ever slept.
hah
bye world.
really this time
my eyes are closing.

2007-06-22T12:16:00.001-07:00

i could use someone to talk to
its 3.20 am and i cant sleep.
oh well.
guess i have to just occupy myself with something.
bye world.
i bet you guys are fast asleep and deep into ur dreams. heh.
shalalala in the morning.

i wish i never got myself into this really
i hate myself for it
someone rescue me

2007-06-22T09:47:00.000-07:00

MY DANNY =)

only mine and mine only =)

CUTENESS

*melts

2007-06-22T07:00:00.000-07:00

boreddddddddddd.
grr

tell me why this is happening.

i should go muggggg
yeah.
taas.
i'll blog again kay bloggie
HAHA. =)
i love my new bloggie =)

confused soul

2007-06-21T01:20:00.000-07:00

hello =)

finally. my own blog.

i have been too lazy to get my own, therefore the reason why i shared with people before this. haha.

Then i thought, i should not limit other people's blogspace. and also i should stop rambling to other people. now i can whine and complain like i always do to my beautiful beautiful blog =D
The blogskin's PINK! XD (haha elle is so going to kill me for that :P)

im really stressed right now, so hope you dont mind the vulgarities. if you do, too bad lor :P WEKK

fck this whole thing.
i hate it i hate it i hate it.
atiqah pls get a grip of yourself.
if not i'll murder the fck out of you.
nobody said this was going to be easy.
why am i so dumb. seriously.
URGH.
but now i feel like throwing a glass bottle onto the wall. heh cannot.

i feel better now. i think.hehs.